Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Yes, I do indeed read my horoscope every day.

This particular one personalizes it, which REALLY makes it seem legit.

Are you single, Diana? If so, today you might just fall in love at first sight. You may have been frustrated lately by the lack of interesting people who are available, but today you could meet someone one who seems just too perfect for words. And you can rest assured: the attraction is mutual! On the other hand, if you're already involved, you can expect a revival of the fairytale type of romance between you and your significant other. Enjoy!

Today, I interviewed for a part-time job and dressed my best for it. I didn't think I was having a particularly good hair day. (It was a HUGE hair day.) I wore my new shoes...I am NOT a shoes girl. I do not like shoes. Shoe stores give me the shakes and I don't feel any need to actually spend money on shoes. I love clothes! I do. But I wish there was just a universal pair of shoes that I could wear with absolutely everything. These shoes are nothing but a pair of nude-colored pumps from the Vera Wang Kohl's line, but I can't believe how many compliments I get on them. THIS is what happens when I buy an article of clothing because it looks like something the Duchess of Cambridge would wear.

(Next week, I start wearing fancy hats.Every day. Every where.)

I will liken the Duchess of Cambridge shoes to the Traveling Pants in that I feel darn confidant in them, since I'm 5'0 and flesh-colored heels are supposed to make your legs look a lot longer.

And if I was going to fall in love at first sight, I might as well be looking my best.

I went to a doctor's appointment and then stopped at the supermarket to buy some Keurig pods...and then Michael Buble's "Just Haven't Met You Yet" came-on.

Now, I ALREADY glance around whenever this song comes-on in a store, but I especially had to on this day when my horoscope told me I was going to fall in love at first site.

As I glanced around, I eventuaoly locked eyes with a very cute young man, but I think he worked at the supermarket...which is fine...but I also think he was about 17.

Ah, well.

Next time.

Diana Rissetto

Sunday, March 18, 2012

An open letter to that person who really really hurt me...

I knew there was a chance I'd run into you the other night...and I was prepared for it. I was going to give you a very cheerful and pleasant hello. I wasn't going to let you see how much you had hurt me and, even though a lot of time has gone by, the way your actions have impacted my life.

I wasn't going to let it show.

I also wasn't going to throw a chair at you and tel you that I cursed the day you were born.

I was going to be the bigger person.

On my way over, I heard the Don Henley song "The Heart of the Matter." 

There are people in your life who have come and gone
They've let you down, they've hurt your pride
You gotta leave this all behind you 'cuz life goes on
You keep carrying that anger, it will eat you up inside
I kept those lyrics in my head and when I saw you, I remembered everything about you that made me feel horrible for years. I wondered why I would let somebody like you have such a hold over me and dictate the way I felt about myself for so long.

I kept replaying those lyrics.

The anger and hurt I was carrying around regarding you was doing nothing but eating me up inside.

I'm releasing you.

I didn't get to talk to you that night...but it's the thought that counts...and I really was willing to go over and say hello and wish you well...not because I wanted anything from you, but because it would have been the right thing to do.

It might seem miniscule, but seeing you and not wanting to cry or throw-up was a huge step for me.

I have to be happy with who I am...confident and optimistic and remember that there is no place for somebody like you in my life anymore.

But...hello. It's good to see you. Good luck.