Thursday, August 11, 2011

Didn't think anybody would notice...

For a while, I was oddly attached to a singing AMNY newspaper lady that I saw every morning. She would sing "Autumn in New York", always changing "autumn" to the appropriate description. "It's Friday in New York!" "It's raining in New York!" and then she'd sing "It's gonna be a bright...bright...sunshiney day...", once again, filling in her own lyrics so it would make sense.

One day, she disappeared.

I hoped she would come back and she never did.

I even emailed AMNY and asked, since they actually have an email address to write to talk about your favorite promoters.

(They never responded.)

I know I wasn't the only person who loved her. I used to even see people hugging her!

It's been so long but she taught me something SO important about want to live your life so that people notice when you're not there...even if you're a newspaper distributor in a city that has some of the richest celebrities and bankers in the world. I remember that little newspaper lady and I still think about her. I can't say that about any of the other business people I would see every day.

I lost my job in November and the past nine months have been the most frustrating and trialing of my life. (Perhaps I should be grateful that that's the case?)

I've always had a favorite conductor on the train. He's been my favorite since I started taking the train regularly into the city about ten years ago. He's very nice and always talks to me and when I used to work at Barnes and Noble, I'd see him there sometimes as well.

The other night, I was on the train and he saw me and said, "THERE you are! I thought you retired or ran off to Paris. I haven't seen you in so long."

I told him what had happened...that I had lost my job in November and was on one of the most soul-sucking job searches in history.

He was so sympathetic! He was so encouraging!

And, most important, he noticed when I wasn't there. I didn't think anybody would.

Another woman also told me she had been worried about me because she hadn't seen me on the train in so long.

I didn't think anybody would notice when I wasn't around...I'm really glad they did. And I didn't even have to sing...

Diana Rissetto